The day is kind of boring. I am angry because kyle's father is a complete pyscho. But, I am happy because miss voigt is completely hilarious.
In, orchestra, christian played a down bow instead of an up bow. Miss voigt was like, your seats have names, and everybodys gonna be like Christian orr played a downbow at measure blah blah blah. ... 30 slaps with a wet noodle! <3 i love miss voigt.
As for kyles psycho father, he makes me extremely mad. This isnt the first time he's laid a hand on kyle. This time was worse than the last, kyles wrist is now wrapped in an ace bandage. =[. i swear, the next time kyles dad is an ass to me or kyle while im there, grrrrr, somebodys gonna have to hold me backk. And all of this also means, kyles probably not gonna be going to sophop. =[. Kyle needs out of tht house already! It's like if his father lays a hand on him in a nondisciplinary manner, then he doesnt have to go back there. I'm glad hes going to his moms this weekend, cuz i dont want him in that house. He's going through too much already.
Oh well. Well, back to the world of nothingness. Library for World Civ is annoying when you have nothing to do. . Weeee! okay. Amanda is leaving the page

xxManda<3xx

I keep having flashbacks. the flashbacks always go like this:: starts with my sister screaming when we found out she was dead. then we pull up to the church, we're the only ones there. my sister falls to the ground halfway up the aisle, breaking down in the process, but at that point im not phased. the emotion of that day didnt hit me until later on. im the only one who makes it all the way up the aisle. i see her, cold and like a statue. still feeling emotionless-ish, i place my white rose between her hands, and kiss her cheek. then everyone is comforting us as they enter. then as they close the casket, im holding my cousin heather and my sister, still unphased, and all i can see is my gmom holding onto my mom saying sleep baby sleep, sleep baby sleep, all hysterically. bits and pieces of the ceremony flash. then its the afterparty jawn, and we are upstairs chatting, and everyone seems so happy, and then everything hits me and i flip at everyone for being happy and run out to the porch. tears stream down my face and i just run .. then everything fades to black. and im back to reality. its so tiring. and just with everything else going on, i dont know if i can take anymore =/